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The packing chronicles

Cleaned out my sad excuse for a jewelry collection today and found this little treasure. A surprise gift from my first boyfriend in 8th grade, detached from its original chain. It was so pink and cute. And I remember the moment I got this I was so shocked and didn't know what to do, so I said 'wow, thank you' and put it back in the box (haha). I fall into the category of people who enjoy seeing the little velvet box, especially when it's a surprise. It was also a going away gift because he was moving far far away, so it was also the most bittersweet present. I found it today and felt.. nothing. Which made me feel.. good.

I don't know where I'm going with this. Nowhere, really. It's just that I used your fake roses for several spiritual art projects, and the bear you bought me is lost somewhere in a box. And after finding this I realize that you bought and surprised me with a lot of stuff for a long time. I knew we weren't going to last, but I guess I never thanked you for being so nice to me and telling me what I wanted to hear occasionally. It was comforting to know someone who knew what you wanted and in turn wanted to give it to/surprise you. You were a romantic because you wanted to be and I think every girl wants a boy to do nice things for her because he wants to, if that makes sense.

Hey, thanks.

Where the best feelings are (in no order)

1. The Honolulu airport, because it's warm and welcoming. And being there always means that I'm going home or a home away from home.
2. Aldea's common room, the only place besides my house where I can feel really comfortable sleeping. It's also great for people watching.
3. Underneath a blanket, self explanatory.
4. The passenger seat of Andrew's car, whether it smells like beef or fresh car scent. I enjoy watching Andrew drive and it's always the start or end of something fun.
5. In heels. I always feel hot in heels. If it didn't hurt I would wear them all the time (I'm 5'2").
6. Free falling. I've only done it once but even though I'm tightly harnessed to another person, it's super liberating.
7. The ASB office at ND. I loved being one of the few that felt comfortable in that office and knew where everything was. I loved being able to keep my junk in there and the odd sense of power that I felt when I was in it alone.
8. On my bike, and I really don't know why for this one. Just bike for yourself!

I offer

When the rain is blowing in your face
And the whole world is on your case
I could offer you a warm embrace
To make you feel my love

When the evening shadows and the stars appear
And there is no one there to dry your tears
I could hold you for a million years
To make you feel my love

- Bob Dylan, Make You Feel My Love

Schoolyard chums

Talking about facebook pictures:

Atom: theyre just ...ya know
Lea: you know.. aldea reunions while i'm hellza miles away!
Atom: whats that one thing called that allows you to fly over great distances....a plane?
Lea: on the condition that you pay with what do you call that... money?
Atom: whats it called when you go up to a bank teller and demand them to give you all their money... robbery